yeah man learning things does take a lot of time

espescially things that are not so much clear

things like trust

who is our own, am i alone maybe im maybe im not god knows but the fact that no ones beside me does not say it i can be with a dozen people but still be lonely still be helpless but the thing is do i need these people the better question to ask is do they need

one thing that i have learnt over the years is that people only remember thier needs if u are not valuable to them they will just ignore you

im not here to complain im no different than them we all humans are same, we only realize bad things when they are done to us else we ignore our actions

then we question god what i did to be get treated like this ! fuck god you get what u sow! building trust is the most diffcult thing in the world and it takes consistent effort over the years and yeah my boy you havent build any of it, you are unreliable person that just survive

today i really felt that betrael sense of being ignored by someone who i thought i trusted but yeah i havent done any to earn it so who am i to complain the fact that i cant complain to the person directly makes it more worse